Yours… And Mine.

I can't find the words to describe what I'm feeling right now. Oh my God... It's so hard to bring out what you're feeling inside... It's so much to say... and the dictionary's words are so shallow...

You came into my life so suddenly... so unexpected... like an earthquake. You've shaken me to the core and you've burned that paper person that I was before.

You’ve taught me how to trust... again. How to open myself... again. You've slowly demolished all of my walls... until I saw... myself. For real... this time. I saw what I'd never thought I'll see in myself... I saw a beautiful human being, I saw a big heart that was frozen for so long... I saw me. I saw you. I saw this beautiful world and I saw everything.

I know we've had the deepest and weirdest connection there is. In just a minute we felt that we knew each other since forever. We felt each other like no one ever did before...

All of my life I felt like half of me... was missing. When I've met you I felt complete for the first time in my life. It's crazy, I know... but I felt like a circle was finally closed.

You taught me how to love and how to feel things I never felt before. It was amazing. You were amazing. Everything was amazing. I still can't believe it really happened... to me. I am so grateful that it happened to me...

Before you… I was just existing in my life. Searching for things... searching for people... searching for nothing. I was dead inside. And I didn't even knew that I was living... but I was dead…

You know? We are all trapped in this world... in this big game that makes us always feel so small and never good enough. We try every day to overcome ourselves until we eventually don't even know who we are anymore. Who we are... what we are... Where we're going...

And you... stopped me for a minute from this game. You've said: "Time out! Let's feel it again! Let's feel the life inside of us... let's feel ourselves, let's feel each other!" And... I throwed myself in your loving arms... It was surreal... And I felt it again... So real! And I lived again... Everything. And... for a minute there... the whole world dissapeared into the universe... everything looked so... perfect. Like never before.

We were just stardust... we were just air... and shadows... we were nothing... and we were everything, too. And you gave me that. You gave me what I've been waiting all of my life. You gave to me... a minute of absolute... a minute of divinity. I will never be the same... Never again.

You showed me what amazing feelings I could have if I would throw myself again out there. You taught me how to touch myself on the deepest levels of my being... It was unbelievable. It was a blessing. You were a blessing. And I'll never forget you. You are part of me now... And you will always be.

You know? Everything happens for a reason. Time is an illusion. We are here just to feel everything. Just for that. With all of our souls... with all of the cells from our bodies and our brains. Nothing else really matters you know? Nothing else... Now I know that. We are here just to touch our deepest levels of love, conscientiousness and compassion...

Thank you! Thank you for the best time of my life! For all the amazing moments that will stay with me forever. Thank you for being such an incredible human being... and thank you for sharing with me a part of yourself. It was amazing. All of it...

Thanks God I've met you... and thanks God I loved you like I did. I'll always remember. What we had... millions of people search for... all of their lives... and sadly some of them will never have.

For me you will always remain that bright light that made all the darkness go away. That shining star that brought me closer to the sky. That amazing soul that made me feel my soul... again. That beautiful body that made me love my body... as it is. That best friend that always knew how to make all the bad things go away... That passionate lover that made me feel like a real woman... once again.

You will always be part of me. Wherever I'll go and whatever I'll do... you will always be there... in my mind... in my body... in my soul.

I'll always love you. With all my heart. With all my all. And... when you love someone like this... you don't want to posses them. You free them... You want them to be happy. Wherever they'll go... whatever they'll do... You just want them to be happy.

I wish you all the happiness in the world. You deserve it. I wish you all the love in the world. I'm sure there's a special woman out there that will give you that. I wish you a life full of joy and great adventures. I wish that you'll never again feel alone, nor upset, nor cold... I wish God will send you an angel that will protect you from all the harm in this world. I wish you will have a smooth road in life... a path without any fears nor regrets... I will not wish you to have a "nice life"... I wish that you will have the best life that you can have.

Goodbye, my love...

Forever yours.