I’m a runner

I’m a great runner.

I’ve ran my whole life. From everything. Towards everything. Running away… running back… running for and from things…

I’ve always felt like running. At first I was running from my past, my mistakes, my failures, my pain. Then I was running from my fate, my family, my relationships, my feelings. Afterwards I started running towards goals, dreams, ambitions… At one point I was running from myself, from my lives, from my illusions… towards my truth… towards my freedom… to another world… to my world. Everything was haunting me… Always. Running faster and faster and further and further… I could feel its breath on the back of my neck… always so close… right there behind me… constantly chasing me… I was running to escape… I was running because I never knew how it feels to stop… to stay… I was running from my memories… my achievements… and my home… Running away… then running back and then running towards a new destination… a brighter future… a better place… a more quiet, peaceful… world. I was chasing and I was chased. Always.

My body… my legs… my heart and my lungs… developed stronger muscles… I became so strong… so used to the rhythm… to the movement… to the surroundings I was crossing by… I became a professional athlete. My mind became this amazing machine that was able to control everything… laser sharp focus… clear vision… anticipating all the obstacles and all the strategies it needed to get to the next level… I became a champion at running.

Along the way… so many people tried to distract and divert me… some were bolder and even tried to stop me… :) but most of them… wanted to race against me… and that was so fun for me :)) every single time… Watching them start… and then sprint along my side… and then gradually getting more and more tired and eventually giving up… I tried to tell them… I was trained in this… for so long… I can’t even remember… for how many lifetimes… Always running… with the speed of light… from everything and towards everything… over and over again… like a river… then like a waterfall… then like a river again… like an ocean… and then again… Running like water… Connected to everything and disconnected from everything in the same time.