Only God Can Judge Us

Over time I've given so many chances to people... I wanted so much to be understood, accepted or at least... to be left alone. I could never do this to others. They've always entered uninvited into my life with their dirty boots... always judging me, always criticizing me... even hating me... for what I feel or for what I am or for what I do or for how I think... I'll never understand how they can judge so easily "the good" and "the bad", "the normal" and "the abnormal"... I'll never understand how can they be so ignorant and so immature... arrogantly assuming the role of God.

No one is superior to anyone... No one knows anything. There is no universal truth. We don't even know what is good and what is wrong for ourselves, how can we know it for others? How? Can you enter the mind or the soul of another human being? Can you know exactly what makes him happy or sad? My Goodness... how can they do that?

I went to a school... I've studied psychology for 5 years... and eventually I gave up. Why? Because I

simply couldn't... put people in categories, boxes, symptoms, syndromes, diseases and rules... I couldn't do that. I initially chosen this kind of science because I thought I would find there a balanced space... I thought I could help people if I had this job. What have I discovered there instead? That psychological orientations and ideologies are many and very different... and even contradictory. You can't choose between one or the other. You can't never know who's right or wrong. I couldn't be a part of this circus... I couldn't judge them for their emotions.

The one who tries to fit everything into categories... has an absurd urge of control. Control is actually just an illusion. Nothing is what it seems... there's no logical explanation for anything. We just invent concepts... Everything is what it is. There's neither good nor bad, neither beautiful nor ugly, neither young nor old... These are all society’s constructions that create this false impression that they have the control.

In truth... nothing is real and nothing is unreal... because reality depends on someone's specific

perception of this "reality". Nothing can't be judged, evaluated, estimated, predicted or anticipated. Everything is relative... Nothing is lost, nothing is gained. The truth is that nothing depends on us... We do not own the world... we don't own the people and the earth and the sky. Everything is permitted to us. We are here, in this moment, just because God wanted us here. And we will leave/die... when and where and how God wants. That's the only universal truth there is.

I don't know how people can be so naive to think they can control anything. :)

I understand that from this cruel awakening... suffering arises, indeed. Some people wake up very early, others later in life... and some people will sleep forever. All I can do for these people is pray like this... "Forgive them, Lord... cause they don't know what they are doing..."